You Never Said Goodbye

Goodbye is a funny thing. Something that we avoid saying- despite whether or not it is something we desperately want to say. It can both open doors, and close them, or both. The consequences of saying goodbye are unknown, which scares us, so we don't say goodbye. Saying goodbye to people is something no one likes doing; it can hurt both us and those we say goodbye to. So instead of confronting that monster, we drift apart from people which is usually more painful that ending something definitely. Goodbye is definitive, drifting away leaves people in a grey area which is filled with doubt and insecurities.

did we make it through the rain?

cigarette smoke
drifting out the window
blocking out the night
like our words
hiding the truth
maybe out of fright

later we ran away
spilled words out on the street
like the vodka back inside
the truth something i wanted to say
wanted to know
if you're truly ok

YOLO or something like that..

Our goals in life change as we grow up, fact of life. But if we're supposed to live without regret then shouldn't we be aiming to achieve the goals we set out for ourselves as a little miniature version of ourselves? Does that little version of you regret the decisions you made to become the person you are today? It's impossible to live without regrets, because as we grow and change what we would once regret, we now see as an opportunity. But if we do something we'd once regret then does it count as a regret? Is it a good idea to dwell on the past? Will the future us be something the we in this time would regret? It's like a crazy meta cycle that's making my head hurt.

I think the little version of us would regret things we've done, even though who we are now doesn't regret it.
I don't know what that means.

But yeah.